I haven’t done one of these in a few years, but after such a huge year in 2018 I thought it a good idea to get some ideas out there for the new year.
Putting myself first. After years and years of doing things and not doing things because of the fear of how I’m making somebody else feel. I’m going to trust my gut and look after number one first, because although putting people before you is important in many ways, I need to not sacrifice my own sanity and happiness. Life’s too short to live for someone else.
I’m not going to judge. This year, I feel like certain people have done this towards me, so I vow not do to it to others. I promise to try and understand people and see things from their perspective, because I would hate to make someone feel what I’ve experienced this year. I’m going by the saying of, ‘Only you know your truth. Don’t believe someone else when they try to tell you mine’.
Live in the moment. As much as I’ll be capturing my travel adventures on camera, I am going to try and be present as much as I can in all situations. I am going to sit back, breathe and watch the world go by and take it all in. I’m going to try and say ‘yes’ more to things that excite me and say ‘no’ when I really don’t want to do something.
Stop worrying. I’m actually quite pessimistic. If something happens, I look for all the negatives rather than the positives and I’ll be hung up on them for a good while. I worry until I’ve made up every possible outcome in my head and until they seem like reality, when I know deep down that they aren’t. This year, I vow to try and relax and take things as they come.
Meet people! Going backpacking it’s bound to happen, especially as we’re often staying in hostels. I’m usually quite a reserved person, but I’m hoping that travelling around will allow me to be just a bit more, well, me. I always hold back because I’m afraid of what people will think but I’m going to be unapologetically me, and people can like it, or lump it I guess!
Write again. Although I haven’t completely fell out of love with writing, 2018 seen me take a completely different writing direction. No longer was I telling you about my favourite lipsticks or what was included in my skin care routine, it turned deep. I opened up about my demons and shared some of my struggles with you. In 2019 I wanna take this blog on a new journey, to the other side of the world pretty much.
Continue my fitness journey. More bloody journeys haha. But last year seen me fall in love with CrossFit and Olympic Weightlifting and I hope that’s gonna continue whilst I travel. Although I’ve taken full advantage of the festive period and eating all my favourite foods before my noodle diet, I’m excited to get some workouts in on the road and get back to feeling fitter.
Keep on talking. Opening up about my mental health struggles wasn’t easy, but it did lift an enormous weight from my heart. It allowed me to share honestly how I was feeling, no matter how low and bring a new, raw conversation to be had with those that know me best. I felt like I didn’t have to lie anymore and people could know and understand me better.
Embrace insecurities. We were only given one body and one life and often, we can spend so much of our time prodding, poking and hating certain parts about us. Whether it’s something we can see, or something we can’t, we’re constantly bringing ourselves down. Even if I can improve this by loving myself 1% more than I do now, I’ll be on to a winner.
Do it. Towards the end of last year, I handed my notice and swapped my 9-5 for a one-way ticket to Bangkok. I leave in a few days. I’ve never done anything like that before, but I want to do more.