Last night I came out with the words, ‘I just don’t know what my thing is any more’.
You know when people just have their ‘thing’ and that’s what they do? Yeah? I wasn’t sure whether I had anything that I felt was mine.
For a long time I guess ‘blogging’ was my thing. It was a topic of conversation that would always come up whether I was chatting to family, friends or new people.
They would ask how it was going, say how pleased they were for my latest collaboration or even envy over my lasted product gifting.
Blogging was my ‘thing’. Especially when I first began way back in 2012 and nobody really knew what it was all about and it wasn’t really something that people did.
Nowadays it’s always the questions of, ‘Oh, you don’t really blog that much anymore, do you?’ or ‘You don’t still do all that beauty stuff now, huh?’ or even ‘Don’t you miss all the free stuff you used to get?!’. It’s almost as if they’re disappointed that I stopped (or rather, it’s my internal anxiety telling me that they think that, odds are they don’t).
Don’t get me wrong, it was a fantastic perk of blogging to get gifted beauty products. From skin care to makeup, my drawers were constantly topped up with the latest releases and it was so exciting when they landed on my doorstep.
Everyone thought it was ‘so cool’ that I blogged and that I could make money from tapping away on my laptop.
But eventually, it just wasn’t ‘me’ anymore. I stopped caring as much as I did for the beauty world, I rarely wore makeup and my passion just faded. I didn’t care about spending hours of my time writing away about things I didn’t feel strongly about anymore.
& that was SO okay!
But now I feel like that blogging ‘thing’ that I once had is gone, I’m a ‘has been’ and I’m not ‘cool anymore’.
I’m just average Megan now, not ‘Blogging Megan’.
Over the past two and a half years, I’ve really taken to CrossFit and the functional fitness way of life. It’s almost as if it’s my new ‘thing’.
I mean, I absolutely love it. I train five times a week, spend too much money on gym clothes and accessories and get programmed so that I have the opportunity to get better.
I get just as much excitement over a weightlifting session as I did when GHD sent me a hairdryer way back when.
I used to spend several hours a week behind my laptop screen (as I am right now!) drafting up posts or scheduling tweets. But now my time is more spent in the gym, stretching at home and washing my ever-growing pile of gym wear. (Seriously, there is never enough!)
Is this now my new ‘thing’?
I guess a ‘thing’ could be looked at as a conversation starter. It’s something that you do on the regular and love. It can be a whole host of things, blogger, runner, singer, sewist, writer… The list is endless. It can also be your job; teacher, personal trainer, driver, waitress.
But after last night’s conversation, I’m starting to see that your ‘thing’ doesn’t have to be just that and that you are much more than the things you do, both as a career or a hobby.
I am much more than a functional fitness lover.
I am a sister.
A daughter.
A friend.
A partner.
A auntie.
I am a good listener.
A shoulder to cry on.
An average cook…
… but a better baker.
A reader.
A ‘one-woman-show-in-the-car’ performer.
A mental health advocate.
A little bit obsessed with plants.
A chocolate fiend.
There is so much more to me than the things you see me doing in my spare time. & I guarantee that there’s so much more to you too.
I guess I was thinking that my ‘thing’ had to be this super exciting, unique thing that people would think, ‘oh yeah, Megan. She’s the *insert exciting thing here*’.
But looking at that list up there. I’m happy to be all of those things and more. They all contribute to who I am in some way or another.
Maybe ‘being Megan’ is my thing.
I think I like that.